Summary of 2018

Hey guys. Its already new year now.. hope its not too late to wish you all a happy new year. Wishing you have a wonderful year inshaallah.. 

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Its 2019 now.. and its a goodbye for 2018. I faced lots of thing during 2018. Never thought i learned so much life things in one year. I never hate nor love 2018 but thats it. All i could say 2018 taught me a lot. I experienced so much things in 2018. 

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Started my 2018 as a students. A final year of a diploma in physiotherapy students. All was well.. stil with the same roommates, the same classes, the same college, the same life. And on february, went to practical at you-know-where. Meet a new people there and never taught that i love the relationships there. Im enjoying being a practical student there (( but i never knew it could hurt me this much now. Wait until september part and you will know why)) 

The best part was when i had an ankle sprain and the terjatuh part, the swollen ankle part. And its really tiring to catchup the bus and lrt early in the morning just to arrived on time. Travelling using public transport for one month from pj to ampang its not funny guys. And really tiring. But its worth it and we enjoyed it.  Everything was just beautiful and its a hardest goodbye. The last day at there before moving on to the next clinical placement was a sad day. 

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March, i've been practical at PJ. Knowing theres a lots of disabled child in this world just make me sad. And the hardest part when theyre not accepted by their parents for who they are just heartbreaking. This place were really an eye opener for me. Make me realize that these disabled kids need to be love to. Little did i know that i could miss them now.. i always wanted to finish my posting there but who knows the last day there was just another sad day for me.. for us.. and yes, for them too. They have feelings too guys.. and theyre also sad seeing us go and will never come back again.. 

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April. 3rd clinical placement at klang. Everythings good. Especially sharing room with cahila and syieda. Bonding time with them were priceless. Sleep with them were amazing. Knowing them were just another blessing. I miss to be their roommates again. And to karaoke with them for 8hours straight!

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May. My birthday and nothing special. No celebration like before this but yaaa im thankful for everything. Just so sad that they didnt remember my birthday and guess what? I had a very least people wishing me on my 21st birthday.. maybe being 22nd will be better hahhaha hope so. 

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And on june, its fasting month and a real final exam for us. Still remember the last ospe, i didnt sleep at all. Not because im studying but just because i cant sleep and i dont want to sleep and i just want to spend time with my roommates and neighbours.. and after ospe exam, damia and i straight away went to kenanga to buy raya clothes until evening and we went to bazaar and im just too tired and ter-sleep 5 min before azan. Hahaha. 

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July. Raya month! Its a happy month and a sad month as well. My phone was down to fever guys. A very bad fever until its cannot be fixed anymore. And to make it more sad, its happened on the raya month and we also have family day this year.. goshhh! I dont have lots of picture during raya this year hhuhu. But its a good thing also cause i got a new one that im using now yayyy! 

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And after raya im helping ayahchik with his mouse tail supplier work. Nothing much but okay laaa.. lots of improvement done but still theres lots of problem throughout this. But the most unexpected part was when ayahchik asked me to drive from cyberjaya to salak tinggi. Mannnnn do you know how long i didnt drive? But you know, its a good start. Im back to driving now and i just love to drive. Sometimes i went back to pasir gudang just to drive. Hahhaha. 

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August - Its a good start. And bad also. I'd been accepted at you-know-where. Never taught i could be accepted as i came there just to meet miss fiqa, and all of the staffs there. I still remembered how disagree everyone at me when im saying i already worked there. I prayed so hard so that Allah make things easier. (And He did) 

 Its just another beautiful month you know to spent the whole day with the one that you already know during practical. And the relationship there was just priceless. The karaoke session all that. I miss them. But i hate it because it will never be the same anymore. The you-know-who make me hate you-know-where so much now. Wanna know why?

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September - i've been through a hardest heartbreak this month. I've been rejected by you-know-who and its felt so sad.. and hurts.. so much.. even typing this make me feel so much pain now. Its not easy to move on dude. I was crying all over again and no one dare to ask a single why what happen to me even my parents also. They understands me well and i just feeling so sad and regret for not listen to what they said before. Parents instincts is always the best and you guys just please believe on it. I've been through it and i know how it feels like. To believe that is good but not good in your parents heart. I just so angry with everything that day. Especially realizting tha i've done the best but my best is never enough. Its take me the whole month to move on from what had happened and yes i cried every single day, every single time. And i shall say it as a sadtember.

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October. It was a great start. I've been interviewed  and they accepted me. On the 1st october itself. And i met my #teamjai also. Met them and sleep with them in one room again, jalan2 and being their driver.. haihhh i miss them lotsss

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November was just another great start. I started work and still working today at the same place till now alhamdulillah. November always been an amazing month for me since my high school days. And i just thinking that i want to call it yesvember because its always the best month of the year and its a yes. 

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I always scared to meet new people after what had happened on september. To being attach with new people and to being nice and to prove youre the best but never been the best to anyones eye. But one thing i learned from one of my good friend, just go out from our comfort zone. Meet new people, get to know others. Because that is life. 

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December. Its okay as we started to received patients. But we just realized that we always lack of everything. And our management was still so poor. I just dont know how to fix this out. Even till today.. we were so busy until now and i just so sad that i didnt have time to blog now. 

I hope everything runs smoothly and the patients that come also will not complain much. We facing big trouble now as theres lot of things need to be sort out haihhhh.

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And thats all for 2018. Hope you all read all of my entries for 2018 for more details. Except the raya and practical part. Cause i dont have time that day hahah. 

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Hope we have a splendid 2019. And my wishlist for 2019 are to buy a new car. My own car. I already said to mamayah and they disagree as my economy isnt stable yet so yaaa. I just agree with their diasgreement. Never want to argue again. And yes.. i always wanted to ride a horse. I want to ride a horse. I want to ride horse. I want to ride a horse. 

And one more. I want to play futsal. I dont know why but the other day i watched gol and gincu1 and i really really into futsal. I. Just. Want. To. Play. Futsal. 

And.

Riding.

A.

Horse.

Can i?

 2019, please.... 

Yours truly,

Dee 💋

Graduation day

So the day after the rehearsal, it ours biggest day. The day that we'd been waited for quite a long time. The day that witnessed all of our hardship. The day to celebrate our sucess.

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I arrived at mahsa at 11 and the first person i saw was eina. I miss her a lot and im happy that we met again after a long time. Then, we went to upstairs and getting ready there. As we get dressed with our robes, i met a lot of people. One's who is very close with me. One's who was in a different course. One's who was my roommate for both spc ofc and juc. One's who i followed her journey on instagram only. One's who we know each other during first month of english class. Everyone.. really guys, its funny how time flies.

I still remember i went to english class the first month i was at mahsa as i registered earlier. And in that english class, i met a lots of people in different course. And after that class ended, we never see each other nor talked to each other again cause everybody takes their own pathway with their course. Only that day, we met and im so proud that we still can talk and having a good chit chat like before. Gosh, i just miss everyone.

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Also my roomates at juc, mama nini and aien. And ila ofc. Really missing them, to sleep together, to watch movie together, to laugh together, to hug each other.. 

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And my #teamjai. Finally we're complete. Its so good to gather around like this. I had a bad experiences with #teamjai before - during our posting month at melaka. If you read my blog that time, i just give a hint. So let me clear the air. I fought with jai. On the very last day. Its a nightmare guys. I never fought like that before. I never been so brave to tinggikan suara at someone. And jai also was so scary that time. We're arguing nonstop and She scold me so bad that time and kept on scolding me eventhough i had stop arguing. 

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But overall, it was my fault at first cause i triggered her but she scold me nonstop guys. I hate her since that day. And not surprising at all, i burst into tears but not in front of her ofc. And i cried like theres no tomorrow. Horrible day ever guys. But after i went back to mahsa, i say sorry to jai and you know what? She said no to me like whatttt!!! Seriously???!!!! I still remembered, she was like this "takyah ah weyh, lain kali je" goshhhhh heartbreaksssss. Really guys, i hate her so much. As i hate her, i still want to fix this relationship and i cried when she dont want to apologize me. But hey, look now! Those horrible day are the things that we laugh on today. The quotes looking back and realize it was a biggest thing really hit us so much! Missing my girls so much! 

And not to be forgetten, miss azian and miss sundari. When we were at nasam malacca color walk that day, we invited them to our graduation day, and the day before, miss azian said sorry as shes not coming due to her car was breakdown. But after our convocation, she called me saying that they already in front of the hall. Omg, how can i not love them so much. They came all the way from malacca guys.. *cryingarivernow*

And it was a memorable day. Those 5 seconds accepting the scroll on stage. Meeting people that was a very long time no see. Having laugh and jokes together.. knowing that maybe it was the last time we may laughed like this. When is the next time guys? Tell me.. 

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And the most important thing. My parents, my family. It was not my day guys. It their days. My real spinal cord. Without them, i cant be there on stage receiving those scrolls. Without them, i might not be the person i am today. Without them, im nothing. Without their support and encouragement, this 3 years of journey would just stop halfway. 

And my other family. Achik and mamatok watched me from home. Their watched our mahsa live streaming and my mamatok burst into tears seeing me on stage. Thank god mahsa have that live streaming so that my mamatok can watch their first grandchild taking scroll on stage. And they make pulut kuning for me. Maigaddddd ya allah, forgive me if theres any other thing that im not grateful for.. 

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And its so many of them to be mention here. Im so glad that i write almost my diploma journey here knowing someday i might scroll it down once again and read it and miss it and cry for it over and over. 

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There are so many things that i need to jot down here but i just cant.. there's a lots of thing and theres a lump in my heart. I dont know how to express it but let make it short here. Thankyou everyone. Thankyou so much. Mamayah, family, friends, lecturers, all of them, those who came and never leave. Those who came and leave. Thankyou so much. This is not a goodbye. This is a new hello. Its the end. And also the beginning. I open at the close ✨

I made it guys! 3years of journey is not easy. Its always ups and downs there. Blacks and whites. Sweet and bitters. Thick and thin. Front and back. Alhamdulillah i am tough throughout this and not soften up early. 

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Alhamdulillah, Allah make me strong to face all of the obstacles and circumstances.

Yours truly is now a diploma gradute, MAHSA's alumni. Alhamdulillah.

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Diploma in Physiotherapy 🎈

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Its a wrapp!!!!!

Signing off,

Yours truly 💋