Hye guys..
I've been through a very tough week this time. Its so hard guys. I really do enjoying my time at my workplace - heritage. But this time no more. I mean, i still enjoy it but i dont know..
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My third week being in this work life commitment - everything changes. On last tuesday, sir guna suddenly came to me and mentioning that i had to change department. And i was like, great! Which department? Neuro? Or female department? And you know what the answer was? Sir esmath assistant.
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Really guys i dont know how to react that time. Im just smiling and kept smiling but my brain and heart was why me? Why??
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And on the spot sir esmath called me and i started to help him. My very first day with him was very horrible. Everything must be fast, perfect, clean, organise, and fast again.. it was my first day with sir esmath and he scold me a lotsss! Its first day mann, why do you expect me to be this perfect? I know nothing guys especially reception counter things and medicine things.
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Honestly, i miss helping sir guna. Eventhough theres a lots of patient but im not as stress as i am with sir esmath. Working with sir esmath is totally different guys. I cried at the end of the day. A lots. Till the next morning.
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But now its had been 5 days working with him, alhamdulillah so far so good. But its really tense me when theres a lot of patient and sir esmath started to scold everyone.
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But honestly guys, he is such a nice person. I love seeing him give consultation and explanation to every each of his patients. How can he be this clever?
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But its really tiring gais. Everyday after work i couldnt do more. Just lying on the bed and waiting for my bedtime. This assistant thing really tortured me guys. Not so bad torturing but yea.. it is...
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I ran and walk lots this time. My feet hurt the most. I can no longer feel my great toe because its numb. Till now. Maybe because of the nerve compression at my heel.
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And next week, there will be a student from picoms college. I dont know either to be happy or scared or sad. Happy because yeaaa we have new friends. Scared if they ask us question and we dont know the answer. Sad because i dont know..
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But seriously gais, working life isnt that much fun. Its totally different when being a student. Being a student, you can make mistake and nobody will blame you. If you dont know, they will teach you and thats so called learning process.
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But when working, you cant do mistake. All its on your shoulder. All is your responsibilities. If patient get burn or electric shock or die during your treatment its all your fault. And the most important thing is, you must be expert in every topic or disease cause you know, you had finished your study and you should know everything.
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But im not. Im still dont know much. Its not that i dont know, its just that i forgot hhahh. If i can rewind all this time, i just want to come back to my childhood years and pause my moments there.
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Thing getting so complicated and stressful now. I thinks a lots to resign from heritage. I want to find new job, somewhere in jb or singapore like ayah wants..
.
But i know leaving them just so hard for me. I dont know how to feel now. Hope everything js getting better and better.
.
Just pray for me guys.. please...
I've been through a very tough week this time. Its so hard guys. I really do enjoying my time at my workplace - heritage. But this time no more. I mean, i still enjoy it but i dont know..
.
My third week being in this work life commitment - everything changes. On last tuesday, sir guna suddenly came to me and mentioning that i had to change department. And i was like, great! Which department? Neuro? Or female department? And you know what the answer was? Sir esmath assistant.
.
Really guys i dont know how to react that time. Im just smiling and kept smiling but my brain and heart was why me? Why??
.
And on the spot sir esmath called me and i started to help him. My very first day with him was very horrible. Everything must be fast, perfect, clean, organise, and fast again.. it was my first day with sir esmath and he scold me a lotsss! Its first day mann, why do you expect me to be this perfect? I know nothing guys especially reception counter things and medicine things.
.
Honestly, i miss helping sir guna. Eventhough theres a lots of patient but im not as stress as i am with sir esmath. Working with sir esmath is totally different guys. I cried at the end of the day. A lots. Till the next morning.
.
But now its had been 5 days working with him, alhamdulillah so far so good. But its really tense me when theres a lot of patient and sir esmath started to scold everyone.
.
But honestly guys, he is such a nice person. I love seeing him give consultation and explanation to every each of his patients. How can he be this clever?
.
But its really tiring gais. Everyday after work i couldnt do more. Just lying on the bed and waiting for my bedtime. This assistant thing really tortured me guys. Not so bad torturing but yea.. it is...
.
I ran and walk lots this time. My feet hurt the most. I can no longer feel my great toe because its numb. Till now. Maybe because of the nerve compression at my heel.
.
And next week, there will be a student from picoms college. I dont know either to be happy or scared or sad. Happy because yeaaa we have new friends. Scared if they ask us question and we dont know the answer. Sad because i dont know..
.
But seriously gais, working life isnt that much fun. Its totally different when being a student. Being a student, you can make mistake and nobody will blame you. If you dont know, they will teach you and thats so called learning process.
.
But when working, you cant do mistake. All its on your shoulder. All is your responsibilities. If patient get burn or electric shock or die during your treatment its all your fault. And the most important thing is, you must be expert in every topic or disease cause you know, you had finished your study and you should know everything.
.
But im not. Im still dont know much. Its not that i dont know, its just that i forgot hhahh. If i can rewind all this time, i just want to come back to my childhood years and pause my moments there.
.
Thing getting so complicated and stressful now. I thinks a lots to resign from heritage. I want to find new job, somewhere in jb or singapore like ayah wants..
.
But i know leaving them just so hard for me. I dont know how to feel now. Hope everything js getting better and better.
.
Just pray for me guys.. please...
Yours truly,
Dee
Dee
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