AidilAdha 2018

Assalamualaikum gais..
Today is hari raya haji guys, and guess what? Im not celebrating it with my mamayah and also diniey and qayyum. Horrible isnt it? Well, i must tell you this is my very very first time celebrating hari raya haji without my family with me. Even though its just a raya haji but oh come on, its still raya. And everybody knows celebrating raya haji at kelantan are as meriah as raya puasa.
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Im so sad realizing thats my life had changed so much when im started working. I just realize working is really a full time comitment and you have to work in order to survive. Working is not like study. You have no semester break. You doesnt have a lots of time. Your leave also maybe rejected or already taken by someone else. I dont know how to feel right now. Its just like how grown up i had been. I dont know to feel sad or happy... Life is really guys, so confusing.. and i still dont know if i can turn back time, i will be still confuse to choose work or continue my study.
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So my first time raya haji without them - i guess there will be a lots of first time also after this. Really hope i will never had a " first time raya puasa without them" - On malam raya, i went to ayahabe house again and we straight away went to achik house at cyberjaya. We had kuzi ayam and kambing for malam raya. And i slept at ayahabe house. And today, my raya haji... I woke up at 10 🤣 lol, cause yeaaa nothing to do. But then we still go raya at ayah lan's house during lunch. And after asar, i went back to heritage. And tomorrow, yours truly is working. Yayyy 😪
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I really enjoying myself with the kids. Abang nukhreez, abang aaron and baby ayden. If you're following my blog since forever, you will know how close i am to them. How happy i am to be and play with them. They're so grown up now. Abang mukhreez is now in standard 1 and he is such a brilliant boy. He knows how to read and spell already - no need to type his cartoon channel on youtube anymore. Abang aaron is still in his tantrum stage. He is clever also but guess what he knows what is bodoh and so on.. omg kids nowadaysss, who teach him???!!!! And baby ayden. He is 1 year and 8 months now. He can walk already and he starts to like me i think. Really guys, before this, he is so scared with me and everyone ofc but now he started to be close with me - watch my ig stories. I guess because i usually came to their house latelyso thats why, he already know me. And yes, i teached him to say "kakak" and now he can say kakak clearlyyyy!!! Im so excited!!! But when i asked him who is kakak, he dont know omg 🤦
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So i guess thats all bout my raya haji this time. Honestly i dont feel quite sad because i dont think bout it. Yea, i feel sad like i want to cry and want to be with my family but then im busying myself with the kids so i dont feel so much sad. Thats another tips how not to be sad i guess. Busying yourself with other things and you will forget your "problem" for a while. Happy eid adha guys, hope you have a nice day 😊

Yours truly,
Dee 💋