Assalamualaikum gais..
Today is hari raya haji guys, and guess what? Im not celebrating it with my mamayah and also diniey and qayyum. Horrible isnt it? Well, i must tell you this is my very very first time celebrating hari raya haji without my family with me. Even though its just a raya haji but oh come on, its still raya. And everybody knows celebrating raya haji at kelantan are as meriah as raya puasa.
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Im so sad realizing thats my life had changed so much when im started working. I just realize working is really a full time comitment and you have to work in order to survive. Working is not like study. You have no semester break. You doesnt have a lots of time. Your leave also maybe rejected or already taken by someone else. I dont know how to feel right now. Its just like how grown up i had been. I dont know to feel sad or happy... Life is really guys, so confusing.. and i still dont know if i can turn back time, i will be still confuse to choose work or continue my study.
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So my first time raya haji without them - i guess there will be a lots of first time also after this. Really hope i will never had a " first time raya puasa without them" - On malam raya, i went to ayahabe house again and we straight away went to achik house at cyberjaya. We had kuzi ayam and kambing for malam raya. And i slept at ayahabe house. And today, my raya haji... I woke up at 10 🤣 lol, cause yeaaa nothing to do. But then we still go raya at ayah lan's house during lunch. And after asar, i went back to heritage. And tomorrow, yours truly is working. Yayyy 😪
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I really enjoying myself with the kids. Abang nukhreez, abang aaron and baby ayden. If you're following my blog since forever, you will know how close i am to them. How happy i am to be and play with them. They're so grown up now. Abang mukhreez is now in standard 1 and he is such a brilliant boy. He knows how to read and spell already - no need to type his cartoon channel on youtube anymore. Abang aaron is still in his tantrum stage. He is clever also but guess what he knows what is bodoh and so on.. omg kids nowadaysss, who teach him???!!!! And baby ayden. He is 1 year and 8 months now. He can walk already and he starts to like me i think. Really guys, before this, he is so scared with me and everyone ofc but now he started to be close with me - watch my ig stories. I guess because i usually came to their house latelyso thats why, he already know me. And yes, i teached him to say "kakak" and now he can say kakak clearlyyyy!!! Im so excited!!! But when i asked him who is kakak, he dont know omg 🤦
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So i guess thats all bout my raya haji this time. Honestly i dont feel quite sad because i dont think bout it. Yea, i feel sad like i want to cry and want to be with my family but then im busying myself with the kids so i dont feel so much sad. Thats another tips how not to be sad i guess. Busying yourself with other things and you will forget your "problem" for a while. Happy eid adha guys, hope you have a nice day 😊
Yours truly,
Dee 💋
Wednesday, 22 August 2018
Saturday, 18 August 2018
Hectic week
Hye guys..
I've been through a very tough week this time. Its so hard guys. I really do enjoying my time at my workplace - heritage. But this time no more. I mean, i still enjoy it but i dont know..
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My third week being in this work life commitment - everything changes. On last tuesday, sir guna suddenly came to me and mentioning that i had to change department. And i was like, great! Which department? Neuro? Or female department? And you know what the answer was? Sir esmath assistant.
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Really guys i dont know how to react that time. Im just smiling and kept smiling but my brain and heart was why me? Why??
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And on the spot sir esmath called me and i started to help him. My very first day with him was very horrible. Everything must be fast, perfect, clean, organise, and fast again.. it was my first day with sir esmath and he scold me a lotsss! Its first day mann, why do you expect me to be this perfect? I know nothing guys especially reception counter things and medicine things.
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Honestly, i miss helping sir guna. Eventhough theres a lots of patient but im not as stress as i am with sir esmath. Working with sir esmath is totally different guys. I cried at the end of the day. A lots. Till the next morning.
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But now its had been 5 days working with him, alhamdulillah so far so good. But its really tense me when theres a lot of patient and sir esmath started to scold everyone.
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But honestly guys, he is such a nice person. I love seeing him give consultation and explanation to every each of his patients. How can he be this clever?
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But its really tiring gais. Everyday after work i couldnt do more. Just lying on the bed and waiting for my bedtime. This assistant thing really tortured me guys. Not so bad torturing but yea.. it is...
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I ran and walk lots this time. My feet hurt the most. I can no longer feel my great toe because its numb. Till now. Maybe because of the nerve compression at my heel.
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And next week, there will be a student from picoms college. I dont know either to be happy or scared or sad. Happy because yeaaa we have new friends. Scared if they ask us question and we dont know the answer. Sad because i dont know..
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But seriously gais, working life isnt that much fun. Its totally different when being a student. Being a student, you can make mistake and nobody will blame you. If you dont know, they will teach you and thats so called learning process.
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But when working, you cant do mistake. All its on your shoulder. All is your responsibilities. If patient get burn or electric shock or die during your treatment its all your fault. And the most important thing is, you must be expert in every topic or disease cause you know, you had finished your study and you should know everything.
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But im not. Im still dont know much. Its not that i dont know, its just that i forgot hhahh. If i can rewind all this time, i just want to come back to my childhood years and pause my moments there.
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Thing getting so complicated and stressful now. I thinks a lots to resign from heritage. I want to find new job, somewhere in jb or singapore like ayah wants..
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But i know leaving them just so hard for me. I dont know how to feel now. Hope everything js getting better and better.
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Just pray for me guys.. please...
I've been through a very tough week this time. Its so hard guys. I really do enjoying my time at my workplace - heritage. But this time no more. I mean, i still enjoy it but i dont know..
.
My third week being in this work life commitment - everything changes. On last tuesday, sir guna suddenly came to me and mentioning that i had to change department. And i was like, great! Which department? Neuro? Or female department? And you know what the answer was? Sir esmath assistant.
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Really guys i dont know how to react that time. Im just smiling and kept smiling but my brain and heart was why me? Why??
.
And on the spot sir esmath called me and i started to help him. My very first day with him was very horrible. Everything must be fast, perfect, clean, organise, and fast again.. it was my first day with sir esmath and he scold me a lotsss! Its first day mann, why do you expect me to be this perfect? I know nothing guys especially reception counter things and medicine things.
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Honestly, i miss helping sir guna. Eventhough theres a lots of patient but im not as stress as i am with sir esmath. Working with sir esmath is totally different guys. I cried at the end of the day. A lots. Till the next morning.
.
But now its had been 5 days working with him, alhamdulillah so far so good. But its really tense me when theres a lot of patient and sir esmath started to scold everyone.
.
But honestly guys, he is such a nice person. I love seeing him give consultation and explanation to every each of his patients. How can he be this clever?
.
But its really tiring gais. Everyday after work i couldnt do more. Just lying on the bed and waiting for my bedtime. This assistant thing really tortured me guys. Not so bad torturing but yea.. it is...
.
I ran and walk lots this time. My feet hurt the most. I can no longer feel my great toe because its numb. Till now. Maybe because of the nerve compression at my heel.
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And next week, there will be a student from picoms college. I dont know either to be happy or scared or sad. Happy because yeaaa we have new friends. Scared if they ask us question and we dont know the answer. Sad because i dont know..
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But seriously gais, working life isnt that much fun. Its totally different when being a student. Being a student, you can make mistake and nobody will blame you. If you dont know, they will teach you and thats so called learning process.
.
But when working, you cant do mistake. All its on your shoulder. All is your responsibilities. If patient get burn or electric shock or die during your treatment its all your fault. And the most important thing is, you must be expert in every topic or disease cause you know, you had finished your study and you should know everything.
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But im not. Im still dont know much. Its not that i dont know, its just that i forgot hhahh. If i can rewind all this time, i just want to come back to my childhood years and pause my moments there.
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Thing getting so complicated and stressful now. I thinks a lots to resign from heritage. I want to find new job, somewhere in jb or singapore like ayah wants..
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But i know leaving them just so hard for me. I dont know how to feel now. Hope everything js getting better and better.
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Just pray for me guys.. please...
Yours truly,
Dee
Dee
Saturday, 11 August 2018
New life on august
Heyya gais!!!
Its 11th august yoo! I just wanna share to you gais that i'd started my new life, on 1st august that day. Can you guess what?
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Alright! Imma proudly to announce that yours truly is working now. I mean i already have a job now. So hard to believe and alhamdulillah, thank you so much Allah for this rezeki.
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So heres a secret. Only a few of my friends know this so here i am to share with you guys that im working at Heritage Physiotherapy and Rehabilitation Centre now. Yes, it was a place where i was doing my clinical placement. So hard to believe, even me, myself didnt believe it yet!
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And to make it more exciting, kila and is (icans students last time) also work here too. Go and check it out my previous post about my first month of clinical placement 3.
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Its feel good to be back here agaim. To meet miss fiqa again.. miss ayu, miss fifi, miss sri, miss vaitish, sir abi, sir guna, also is and kila.. newcomers also, qila. And not to be forgetten, sir esmath. Did i mention all of them on my previous post? But im still not a permanent staff. Im still in what we called that? Trial period? Prohibition period?? Idk hhaha. O ly this sept // oct sir esmath will decide to take me as a new staff or not.
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I was helping the females section last time esp with miss fiqa and miss ayu. But for now, im helping (( physiotherapy assistant )) sir guna since he is alone and have a lotsssss of male patients. Its awkward to work with male patient but well you know.. this is our job.
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So this week is my second week being here. So far so good. Alhamdulillah. But lemme tell you something. Its so hardddddd to remember every patients treatment especially the TENS machine placement. Im very bad in any placement thing. Im so scared if sir guna scold me and asked me to remember cause really i cant :')
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Although i already working.. but this all are still my learning process. So much thing i have to discover.. This is all learning process gais. You make mistake. You being scold. You sad. You cry. But the next day you get up and smile, trying not to repeat our same mistakes. We all make mistake. We all learn from mistake. This mistake is our teacher. May Allah ease my works throughout this journey ameen.
Its 11th august yoo! I just wanna share to you gais that i'd started my new life, on 1st august that day. Can you guess what?
.
Alright! Imma proudly to announce that yours truly is working now. I mean i already have a job now. So hard to believe and alhamdulillah, thank you so much Allah for this rezeki.
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So heres a secret. Only a few of my friends know this so here i am to share with you guys that im working at Heritage Physiotherapy and Rehabilitation Centre now. Yes, it was a place where i was doing my clinical placement. So hard to believe, even me, myself didnt believe it yet!
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And to make it more exciting, kila and is (icans students last time) also work here too. Go and check it out my previous post about my first month of clinical placement 3.
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Its feel good to be back here agaim. To meet miss fiqa again.. miss ayu, miss fifi, miss sri, miss vaitish, sir abi, sir guna, also is and kila.. newcomers also, qila. And not to be forgetten, sir esmath. Did i mention all of them on my previous post? But im still not a permanent staff. Im still in what we called that? Trial period? Prohibition period?? Idk hhaha. O ly this sept // oct sir esmath will decide to take me as a new staff or not.
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I was helping the females section last time esp with miss fiqa and miss ayu. But for now, im helping (( physiotherapy assistant )) sir guna since he is alone and have a lotsssss of male patients. Its awkward to work with male patient but well you know.. this is our job.
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So this week is my second week being here. So far so good. Alhamdulillah. But lemme tell you something. Its so hardddddd to remember every patients treatment especially the TENS machine placement. Im very bad in any placement thing. Im so scared if sir guna scold me and asked me to remember cause really i cant :')
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Although i already working.. but this all are still my learning process. So much thing i have to discover.. This is all learning process gais. You make mistake. You being scold. You sad. You cry. But the next day you get up and smile, trying not to repeat our same mistakes. We all make mistake. We all learn from mistake. This mistake is our teacher. May Allah ease my works throughout this journey ameen.
Yours truly,
Dee
Dee
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