Moving day

Last friday is the day. The day that achik, ayahchik and i had been waiting for. Its the moving day yayyy. Finally the time had come. Achik and i packed all of the things for about a month. Its quite tiring but not so, as we sort it out by phases like tonight we packed kitchen things, tomorrow we packed shirts and tudungs and so on.
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I was very energetic that morning as im so excited to move out. Really cant wait to stay at serene cause that house and the environment itself are really calming and refreshing. I had been there a few times before we moved in as we had to clean the house, measure the langsir and all. We finished moved out and moved in at 6pm. Its really a long day. And alhamdulillah everything went well despite all of the circumstances that we faced.
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Domain's security didnt allow our lorry to come in as we forgot to tell the management, both of the lift was broke down, no sufficient space for lorry, had to do two trips which means double payment, and its raining so our movement quite limited to get down stuffs from the lorry. And when a guy from unifi came to this new house to connect the wifi to its source, we didnt have the cable - we left it at domain. Amirul, achik's nephew went to domain to take that cable but its a wrong cable again. Achik was quite stressful and she was the one going back again to domain and bring all of the cables that we had and give to that unifi guy and finally, there it is.
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After we finished loading our things and all of our stuffs had been moved out and moved in, we straightly had to arrange and unpacked it. Its really tiring guys like we had to packed and unpacked. And we just moved in but we had to arrange this and that to normal position, pasang curtain, set up the tv, sofa, unpacked kitchen things, fridge foods, clothes, books, all of it cause there's no space left! All in one day!
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I never expect to be this tired. I stopped unpacked at maghrib time and went to my new room ((yeahhh)), went to pray and im crying. Im crying guys because i am sooo tired.. Never thought that tired, can be the reason i would cry. We went out for dinner after isyak and after that we went back to domain to pick up just a few more things left there.
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As i entered achik's 'old' house, i just felt soooo sad.. its empty guys. Really empty.. nothing left.. no tv,  no sofa, no table, no curtains, no bed. I just want to burst into tears looking at this empty space but i cant as i dont cry in front my family members hahahh #ego . Once again, i never thought i could be this sad cause as far as i know, im happy to move to a better place. But this place just reminds me of everything.
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Its had been 3 years with this home. Same years as i enter my college life. I still remember everytime im bored during weekend, i always went back to this place. You know i always had my staycation at this home. Even, i brought my juc roommates and my spc roommates to this house. Its just so sad... But thats how life is. No turning back, move out, move in and move on.. yes!!
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So the first night at 'here' was fine. Im happy and its just felt like really am having a vacation at the resort. The view is really nice like you can see swimming pool from this balcony - yes guys this place have balcony, like finally... And its still an apartment but it is ground floor guys so we dont have to deal with lift again yeahhh like again, finally....
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And the next day, i had to go to malacca for nasam malacca colour walk - which is so fun; will blog about it later - but again guys, i just felt so tired but happy.. its just so sad that i cant stay longer in the new house like i didnt get a hold yet of whats happening but then i had to travel to malacca. (( But staying at malacca was quite fun tho; later okayyy, later.. ))
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Thank you for all the memories domain 3. You had been so nice to me, except the lift - and a few more. I will miss to sleep and waking up with a nice view from the 19th floor. Will be miss to hear the jamming song at those restaurants when im in bathroom and night time before sleep. Once again, you had seen me for 3 years and you witnessed me growing up for a better person. I will miss you - a bit ..

Yours truly,
Dee

me time

i had completely me time yesterday. well, i didnt planned for it. its all started when i had to go to my college to send document and pay for our convocation - yours truly gonna graduate soon yayyy!! i always said this "nak belajar dah susah, nak konvo pun susah jugak.. *sademoji*" cause you know why? there's a lot of procedure to be taken before you graduate. we have to submit this and that, answer those questionnaire and the most terrible part was online payment was not working. cimb clicks was error the whole time you wanna make payment and mahsa website also didnt worked well.

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and im being me, easily fed up and gave up so i decided to go to mahsa. i took grab from achiks house and guess what i booked it 5 times because the first four was cancelling me like whattttt---'! its just so lucky i didnt rushing that time. and alhamdulillah, everything was settled and i can graduate soon!! cant wait!!!

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so i planned to stay at mahsa until lunch as no one's home and achik also not in cyberjaya. i thought i will be okay with mahsa surrounding as its have wifi at the lobby. but i really felt like want to go to cinema to watch any movie. so i googled tgv dpulze showtime and its showtime fits me. so i booked another grab and went back to cyberjaya - dpulze cyberjaya.

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i choose paskal's movie cause i really want to know how amazing it is as everyone said it was really good. im not the one who really love to watch this action war kinda movie but lets give it a try. i didnt talked so much from the early morning so i really dont want to sit beside any people. and guess what i did? i choose couple seat but i sit it alone hhahahhahah #boyfriendwho #yourstrulyislonely

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and the movie is really good guys. you have to watch it! i really didnt expect it to be this good but wowwww!! im just amazed!! and yes guys i cried a little bit when joshua died. but overall i think its like a sad movie as a lots of sacrifices had to be made, their perjuangan and all and yes like their trainer said, not so many people understand this job. well yaa thats true enough. i didnt know all of this if i didnt watch this movie. theres a lots of jasa that their did. and the family part always touched me. the moment you have to leave your family, and not sure you will be back home safely or not. omaigod, tears down... and the whole movie really make my heart beats faster as their action was really superb and well im scared if they got catched by those lanun. but guys, i really felt like want to repeat it. i want to watch it again guys, anyone want to accompany me? please dont let me do it alone again.. hhahhaa

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and after the movie ended, i take a walk the whole dpulze guys. i walked here and there, up and down and kept repeating. and im doing some shopping at watsons and continue walking. i didnt eat as im fasting so i cant sit anywhere in the restaurant so i walked again and again. 

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i went to dpulze's surau and its really nice.. and clean.. im amazed for a second cause you know, not all surau in this whole world is clean and clear. and there's also a lots of mirror and its big so you dont have to berebut with other people. and i felt really calm as no one's disturb me when im remove my makeup and put it back. 

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so achik fetch me after she finished her work at 4pm - finally i have someone to talk to hhaha. so we went back and settling another things which is achiks new house. its really tiring guys to move out and move in and you have to bring this whole things in this house to another house. fuhhhhh...

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i guess thats all for my me time and im quite enjoying my me time. its really fun to walk alone sometimes, you should try it! goodluck! hahhaha..

yours truly,

dee

this feeling

yes, this feeling is bothering me now. i dont know what kind of feeling is this, but i shall say it like a bored version of yours truly's feeling. i hate this. i really want to start work as soon as possible cause i dont want to feel this feeling anymore. but im sure i will miss doing nothing but this feeling.. it became endless especially during late night and all i felt is just sad and heartless. i miss everything, i miss everyone and became jealous of what other people doing as i scrolled down my intagram or twiter. 

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well, i dont know how to describe it. its just like empty. but theres something in it. its like, not necessarily sad.. but empty.. really empty.. and the most terrible part is, i dont know to whom should i say all of this. well said, i dont have friends. i have.. but i dont really have. they all busy with their own life, their own work. and i just cant disturb them on their working or rest time just to hear this dumb feeling. besides, its hard to explain it and i know they cant understand it. because they cant feel it.

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i hate this feeling guys. i felt sad.. and angry.. all the time... i remembered all of the toughest phases in my life especially my recent event. i felt really really down that people underestimate me all the time, saying that i am up to no good, just wasting my time doing nothing while getting a job. like whattttttt =____=

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it makes me think that i had chose a wrong path. i always thought that its my fault and i should not involve in this physiotherapy thing at all. i just felt regret sometime like why i choose this why why why and whyyyy. it always an endless why.. and stressful part is when people kept asking me to massage because i took this physiotherapy field. hello, why everybody thinks that physiotherapy is all about massage only? all the time!!! why?? and that time again, i just cant defend myself and i dont know why.. i dont know how to clear all of this people mind and change their mindset about physiotherapy. i wish i could tell them but i just really cant as i think that im just a diploma graduate and no one will listen to me. its just so sad when people do their disgusting face to me and say i know nothing when i say its not about massage all the time.. and it always break my heart when they say they just came back from massage spa or they want to go to spa to massage and roll their eyes to me saying that im doing nothing and not use what i'd learned. how should i clear all of this stupid nonsense thing omaigod!!

maybe i'll write about this field in a new entry later. 

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its so hard to have a mix feeling like this. you have to feel all of the feeling at one time. my hearts gonna explode guys and i almost burst to my tears every night. i hate to being sad and cry when i want to go to bed but this feeling is torturing me. its a lump in my heart guys.. and i always felt this when im alone, or im bored. i miss being busy guys.. 

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and this heart felt lonely. and empty.. i like someone 3 days before and i dont know if this is the right feeling. like i miss this one but i also miss the previous one and the other one before this previous one and felt guilty bout it and miss everything and everyone that never think of me and never know that im existed in this whole worldwide. its confusing guys whether another part of this feeling is really because i like him or just another bored yours truly.

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i dont know guys.. really really dont know. its clueless and endless and whatsoever 'less' in this world. again guys im telling you, i dont know to whom should i share all of this. not to my friend because they're busy. not to my family because i never share anything to my family especially this hearty thingy thing. not to my social media like instagram or twiter or whatever because i never tell my followers that im in sad and maybeeeeeeee they will judge me? i dont know.. and why i write it here? because i know there's no one reading this. or if anyone does, thanks to you for spending time reading this, please contact me cause  i need your advice and moral support #eh. 

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i hope this feeling fades away. im sure it will, when yours truly is busy. but i hope its fades away before im being busy cause i really wanna enjoy this time of mine before starts working. any advice or positive vibes guys? how to overcome this insane feeling or should i say, overthinking? but i dont think so... right? do you ever feel like this before?

yours truly,

dee

Current update

Hello guys. I dont know how to start this, i just dont have any words.
Currently im at shah alam at ngah's house, doing nothing ofc. And tomorrow i'll be back at cyberjaya. Really, i dont have any topic to write about cause yours truly is doing nothing. Nothing interesting and nothing to be told. But i guess that just a part of me that love to write so here i am.
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Owh, forget to tell you this.. last week, we had a very beautiful wedding at shah alam. Dr nathasha ayunie & dr afif aiman. They're so lovely and amazing. I really love wedding. To dress, to put make up on, to wear high heels, to feel nervous as what pengantin felt. I really hope to attend a lots more wedding again cause im bored guys. I dont know what to do now.
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The interview session that i told you last time.. they accepted me. And i dont know how to react with this. Either happy or sad.. happy cause yes, guys i have job and sad because its a new place and i have to handle everything alone and its likely a nursing home and taking care of old folks - no variety, just elderly. I dont know either i should accept it or not but i guess i should give a try isnt it? So they asked me to start on this first november and im so scared!!!! Please pray for me guys.
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And this end of october, i'll be going to melaka for nasam colour walk and im so excited. Guess what? My #teamjai also join this so its kinda like reunion for us? Except jai itself because she not sure whether she can go or not. Cant wait to meet with ila, alba, nana, azira and jai - if she come. And i'll be going with kila, my workmate during my practical and working time at you-know-where. Not to mention that place again cause i really hate that place now, especially the one who rejected me.
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And as what i said, i just really want to follow the flow, just accepted what Allah has planned for me as He is the best planner after all.
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And for you gais, i hope you're doing well. I hope you get what you want and i also hope you're happy with what you have and what you're doing right now..
Love yaaa 😘

Yours truly,
Dee 💕

First time on interview

Hello guys.. and hello october.. i hope youre being nice with me cause your friends, september, not.
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Its took about a week for me to really really move on from what had happened before. And now im currently at achiks house, cyberjaya. Achik asked me to stay with her since she will move out from domain 3 to serene. Still in cyberjaya ofc. Based what i'd saw from the pictures achik sent me, that house are really really nice 10 more times perfect than now and i really cant wait to stay there or having my staycation there. You know i always stay with my achik ayahchik right?
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So for this starting october, on 1st october itself.. i had an job interview at LYC Mother & Child Care Centre. It is a confinement centre and i just apply and sent my resume. And they answered me and sent me an interview invitation. I apply for physiotherapy position ofc eventhough idk if there any physiotherapy needed at confinement centre. So i googled and kept on googling, they have another centre which is LYC Senior Living that required physiotherapy there. It was a lots of butterfly in my stomach cause you know, that was my first time went to interview and alhamdulillah everything went well.
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I studied a lots about this interview thingy thing. The posture, the loud of your voice, how to answer for this question.. a lots of tips here and there. But then i forgot everything when im in there. Hahahha i guess thats normal cause yeah we nervous sometimes just like ospe last time. And the interviewer also so kind so im a bit okayyy and just answered what i know. They asked me a lot about myself. No general knowledge question kinda thing.
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And i dont know whether i will be accepted or not. Honestly, i accept whatever their decision is cause you know interview experience is important for me now. So that i can do a lot more better for the next interview, i hope so. So that all. Pray for me guys. Lovee yaaa 😘

Yours truly,
Dee 💕