Move out & move on

Hello gais. How are you? I hope all of you are doing well cause yours truly is not. I am very sad and i dont want to write. About anything. But then i just realize how close i am to this writing thing. How close i am to all of you. I had share a lot of thing with you guys. So i was thinking okay laa why not.
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Sadly to announce to you guys that im no longer a staff at heritage physiotherapy. Yes, i was terminated by sir esmath on saturday, on the spot. It was a very long story. I wish i could write it here and tell you guys the whole story but theres a lot of p&c so yea.. it was a very horrible day for me. Everything was just fine on the saturday morning. Untill 1.15pm sir esmath called me personally saying that im no longer needed. I was mentally prepared for this terminated thing but i just dont expect it would be this fast. At least till the end of this month. I'd convinced him but the answer is still the same so i guess i just have to move out from here.
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It was very unfair for me. I want to argue but i cant. You know me well. When i got scold, i cry. When i scold, i cry. I just cant defend myself. And i was crying the whole day. I kept asking why and why and why the entire day. Its just hard for me. And it hurts.. a lot..
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I really love working here despite all of the tough days that i'd faced. I love my relationship with all of the staffs here.. i am very close with everyone here. And one thing im glad about, they were all unhappy as i am. Im so happy to hear them saying "janganlaa pergi". Its sad but im happy as i know i am something in their life.
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I'd learned a lots from this 'tragedy' especially the family part. Ayah called me and i said it was my last day and mamayah was very supportive and saying that they will come and fetch me, all the way from johor. Ayahchik and achik also came all the way from cyberjaya just to save me. Im so touched and here is the thing. Family is everything. No matter how drown you are, your family is the only that will come and save you. Im so thankful that i still have my perfect family in my life.
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And this things was the biggest thing ever that happened in my life and i will not forget it for the rest of my life. I dont know how to put it into words. I just sooo sad and down. Its just soo fast and im not ready for it. I never felt so much pain in just one day. I never experience this pain.. its so painful and i cant bear it. It hurts guys.. really really hurts.
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I didnt stop crying till today. Its just so hard for me to face this. But afterall, i believe everything happen for a reason. All of these was Allah's planned and im no one to argue bout it. Right now, i just have to follow the flow. Lots of thing i have to do now. The most important thing is to find another better job.
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But let me tell you one thing. I really  need time to recover from all of this. It take time for me to move on from what just happened. And honestly speak, im still not ready to find another job, to get to know people and being attach wih people (( and then what? Getting hurt again? ))
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On the other note, i would like to take this oppoturnities to say thank you to all of them that always being with me especially during my hardest day. Miss fiqa, is, sir abi, qila, kila, miss vaitish, miss fifi, miss ayu, miss sree, sir guna. Thank you.. thank you for all the time that i forgot to say thank you. You guys teached me a lot since the first day i know you guys. And all of you know, i will miss each one of you so much... Goodbye and see you again. I wish i could have some more time with you guys and saying a good proper goodbye. So that i dont feel this hurt.
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And whoever you are, thank you for reading this sad story of mine. I never felt this hurt and please pray for yours truly. Thank you and may Allah bless you 🤗

Yours truly,
Dee 💋