Move out & move on

Hello gais. How are you? I hope all of you are doing well cause yours truly is not. I am very sad and i dont want to write. About anything. But then i just realize how close i am to this writing thing. How close i am to all of you. I had share a lot of thing with you guys. So i was thinking okay laa why not.
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Sadly to announce to you guys that im no longer a staff at heritage physiotherapy. Yes, i was terminated by sir esmath on saturday, on the spot. It was a very long story. I wish i could write it here and tell you guys the whole story but theres a lot of p&c so yea.. it was a very horrible day for me. Everything was just fine on the saturday morning. Untill 1.15pm sir esmath called me personally saying that im no longer needed. I was mentally prepared for this terminated thing but i just dont expect it would be this fast. At least till the end of this month. I'd convinced him but the answer is still the same so i guess i just have to move out from here.
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It was very unfair for me. I want to argue but i cant. You know me well. When i got scold, i cry. When i scold, i cry. I just cant defend myself. And i was crying the whole day. I kept asking why and why and why the entire day. Its just hard for me. And it hurts.. a lot..
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I really love working here despite all of the tough days that i'd faced. I love my relationship with all of the staffs here.. i am very close with everyone here. And one thing im glad about, they were all unhappy as i am. Im so happy to hear them saying "janganlaa pergi". Its sad but im happy as i know i am something in their life.
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I'd learned a lots from this 'tragedy' especially the family part. Ayah called me and i said it was my last day and mamayah was very supportive and saying that they will come and fetch me, all the way from johor. Ayahchik and achik also came all the way from cyberjaya just to save me. Im so touched and here is the thing. Family is everything. No matter how drown you are, your family is the only that will come and save you. Im so thankful that i still have my perfect family in my life.
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And this things was the biggest thing ever that happened in my life and i will not forget it for the rest of my life. I dont know how to put it into words. I just sooo sad and down. Its just soo fast and im not ready for it. I never felt so much pain in just one day. I never experience this pain.. its so painful and i cant bear it. It hurts guys.. really really hurts.
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I didnt stop crying till today. Its just so hard for me to face this. But afterall, i believe everything happen for a reason. All of these was Allah's planned and im no one to argue bout it. Right now, i just have to follow the flow. Lots of thing i have to do now. The most important thing is to find another better job.
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But let me tell you one thing. I really  need time to recover from all of this. It take time for me to move on from what just happened. And honestly speak, im still not ready to find another job, to get to know people and being attach wih people (( and then what? Getting hurt again? ))
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On the other note, i would like to take this oppoturnities to say thank you to all of them that always being with me especially during my hardest day. Miss fiqa, is, sir abi, qila, kila, miss vaitish, miss fifi, miss ayu, miss sree, sir guna. Thank you.. thank you for all the time that i forgot to say thank you. You guys teached me a lot since the first day i know you guys. And all of you know, i will miss each one of you so much... Goodbye and see you again. I wish i could have some more time with you guys and saying a good proper goodbye. So that i dont feel this hurt.
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And whoever you are, thank you for reading this sad story of mine. I never felt this hurt and please pray for yours truly. Thank you and may Allah bless you 🤗

Yours truly,
Dee 💋

Loooooooongg weekend

Hello gais! How was your looooongg weekend? Mine was quite good and fun and enjoyable! So just to remind me if someday im looking back at this post and wondering what was those long weekend was..
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It was agong's birthday on monday and awal muharam on tuesday. So for 'normal' people, they will have four days of holiday which is saturday sunday monday and tuesday. But for me, who is working - even half day - on saturday, we just got three days of holiday.
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So after finished my works, i straight away went to tbs, not for going back to johor but to go to seremban by ktm. I arrived at ktm seremban at 4 and took grab to our most favourite hotel, hotel royale chulan seremban. If you still remember, we used to come here a lots because 'here' are sooooo purfectttttt! Very high recommended and i would like to rate it infinity/10 #overkan hahahh.
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As i arrived, abang mukhreez and abang aaron already in the pool with achik ayahchik ngah and ayah ngah. So i exchange to my mermaid attire and joining them. Its so fun to swim like this especially with these kids around. Kakak already miss them a lots. Then we had a dinner and went to sleep quite early because these kids was super tired. I wish i could put so many photos here. I wish i can blog like the old days, uploading photos and photos and photos and photos and a lotssss more photos. But i cant as i dont have laptop - just on my phone and its quite hard act. Thats why i really hope that you guys follow me on ig so that you can see my photos and my ig story.
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So the next day, we had a breakfast at hotel and swimming again. But too sad, it was raining. So we went to our room early and checkout earlier than usual.
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Then, we went to melaka and had our lunch at our usual and favourite place, asam pedas clatpot. So we met mamayah diniey qayyum and mamatok here. After that, we continue our journey to hatten hotel melaka. I swear guys, i dont know this hotel is very strategic to the city and you can walk wherever you wanna go around malacca and theres a lots of people checking in here. And as we went to our room, we quite sad because of many reasons. Its so cramp and packed like theres no view. Your view is someones room on the next building. We all wanted to swim but its also packed. Only abang mukhreez and abang aaron that go for a swim. The lift also sooooo slowwww - we use 'secret lift' that used only for staff (bellboy) - cause mamatok is using wheelchair yayyy hhahah. All of us very dissapointed with their service and we would rate it 3/10. The most 'unbrain' part was theres no dustbin in the room #saywhattttttt
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So i didnt go anywhere that night. Only the elderly went out and bought us dinner which is kfc and mcd #derrrrrrr so yea guys we went to malacca to have kfc and mcd yes! The next day, we check out superrrr early as everyone were so fed up with the hotel 藍 the hotel is actually nice and good, but because of so many people thats why it become not good hhahha so if you wanna go for a holiday, dont choose malacca as your destinantion okayy!
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So we had lunch at muar - soto and mee bandung muar - which is super duper nice and delicious and im craving right now huwargghhhh. Then, we checked in to another hotel because we were so unsatisfied with malacca. And guess where? Hotel royal chulan seremban again. Hhahah i guess everyone are so happy with this hotel and cant move on from it 藍 and we continue and swimming and swimming and swimming again till the end of the day..
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The next day, abang mukhreez and abang aaron only that swimming because ya everyone was tired. And we checkout and went back to our own home. And thats the end of our loooooong weekend.
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Its was really fun and adventuring as this is the first time we travel with the kids but their parents is not coming as well. Really guys, handling these kids nowadays are really hard. Esp they already grown up and have their own ego and tantrum time. Not to mention their fight part and berebut kakak part. Haihhhhhh..
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But afterall we're so happy. They happy and im happy :)
Wishing we could have another #wmwaholiday once again - even if it is at royal chulan seremban again 藍

Yours truly,
Dee 

First salary

Hello gais. Its already september, and it marks one month of yours truly was (and still) working as a physio girl. And alhamdulillah, i'd received (( and of course use it )) my very first salary ever.
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Its so hard to believe that I have my own money now. My own hardwork. Feel so grown up already :')
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I dont know what to spend on so i gave it to everyone in my family cause they helps me a lot during my study time. I guess this is the time for me to repay them eventhough its just a small amount but yea, i'd learned from someone that whatever amount of salary you had, you have to share esp with your family even just a very small amount. So that you have a blessing from them.
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And also, i use it to make my new glasses. I never changed my glasses since the day i bought it - which is 4 years ago (( yes, yours truly is rabun )) . And im happy right now!! I have new glasses now!! And its really really like really really cheap weyhh!
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My power is quite high, right - 300, left - 75, so i expect it must be expensive a little bit but guess what? Its only rm80 gais omg i wanna cryyyyyy!
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Its have 3 lenses that you can choose. First is like mine, just an ordinary one - rm80. The second one is when its expose to sunlight it become dark - rm130. The last one is for computer or anything with electric screen whatsoever - rm160. Crazy enough!! So cheap gais omg i cant believe it!
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And guess what?? I choose the ordinary one and now... feeling regret to not choose that third type. Huwarghhhhh! But yes, im still happy with my glasses wuuhuuu!
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Moving on, let me tell you a secret. I dont know whether im will continue to work here or not. Honestly speak, i enjoy working here despite all of the hard circumstances that i'd faced during being sir esmath's assistant. Im okay now and i already get used with him. But then, i dont know, whether i will be accepted or not.
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For me, ofc i want to stay. Im happy here. Even though i get angry sometimes. And tired. And sleepy. But i still want it guys. I want to stay and work here. Please pray for me guys. Im in the very ''bottom'' life right now. #prayfordeeyana
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Tomorrow is a long holiday, so whats your plan? Mine? Im working on saturday. So only on sunday and monday and tuesday only i can enjoy myself. Havva nice weekend guys, love ya 💕

Yours truly,
Dee 💋