End of second month

Hey guys, remember my post about pkk taman megah? Yea, i'd already finished my posting there bout a week ago. And little did you know? I miss all of those kids so much!

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If you read my previous post about taman megah, you will know how sad i am to be posted there, how symphaty i am towards them, how i am so bored facing the same thing everyday, how frustated i am to cant enjoy this place. 

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I always asked myself how to enjoy my life here and now i realize that if you cant enjoy it and you dont know how to enjoy it, just learn to adapt. ADAPTATION is a key to everything now. Cause thats what i do. I learn to adapt their life, learn to adapt their weird behavior and learn to adapt everything. 

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And you know what happen next? You will be automatically enjoy your life, enjoy everything! 

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I never thought i could miss all of these kids. Honestly speak, the first day i came there and seeing all of them i said to myself, i cant wait to finish this and im pretty sure im not gonna miss them. At all! 

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But the fact now, i miss them! Cahila and syieda and naddy also miss them. If we are not doing anything we will be talking bout those kids. Their behaviour, their act, their funny things. Suneo, melvin, xinrou, meymey, saiman, vivien, funny, mulan, ema, amlu, winlee, satish, ahhhhh too many kids and i miss them! We miss them! 

And if you still remember what i said about those dark street and beggar and gelandangan.. On our last day before going back, i looked again at those dark streets ready to say bye and unexpected things happen. Those 'gelandangan' and 'beggar' on my right and left side waving their hands and saying byeeee to us. Omaigoddd how cant i be so touched and sad!! 

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It seems like they know it was our last day. Meymey being so sad after came back to school and always look at me when im busy doing suction. ChiaLing crying before going to school. Suneo and saiman slept with us during lunch time. Funny being more clingy. Xinrou wants to hug cahila. Every kids are not normal but it seems like they know the time have come and its a goodbye time. And guess what? They are soo sad!!! 

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Seriously guys, if you think you like those perfect and cute kids and youre ready to be a mom, youre actually not. Come here and try to be a 'mom' to these disabled kids. Try to wash their poop and pee. Try to clean their vomit, try to feed them especially those CP cases. 

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Cause you know, since day one i'd been posted here, i realized that im not ready to be a mom yet and i always ask myself what if one day my child wasnt normal? What if my child be like one of this child?

Ya Allah...

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May Allah bless all of us ❤

Yours truly,

Dee 💋

MahsaCians reunited

Just a quick update here. So on my 3rd weekeend of second month, cahila, syieda and i decided to go to heritage to meet all of the people at heritage cause we miss them so muchhh! Only icans students that was be informed of our presence, not the therapist as we want to surprise them. 

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As we arrived we were the one who got surprised as they were celebrating heritage 4 years anniversarry. And all the therapist also quite shock of our presence. And they were so happy that we're coming. Esp miss fiqa the one who really close to me. 

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I had a very good quality, catching up time with miss fiqa and icans students. Omg i miss them so much! Never thought this meet up would be so meaningful to me. And guess what? Its also shakila 21st birthday wuuhuuuu!!!

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We went to murni also that day. Murni is really a nice place to eat guys. This is my second time been here and i love it so much! A lots of foods to be choose and its soo delicious! I really want to eat there everyday!!! So we had our late lunch, joking here and there and laughing at our own hilarious jokes. I also brought them to mahsa university, they came in at lepaking at our cafe and swimming pool. After 8, they went back to their places, only shakila who stayed with us for one night. 

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We slept at 3 that day cause you know, girls-movie-gossiping. Thats what girls do when they have a sleepover. So the next day we went to masjid jamek and have a look around there. Its been a long time since the last time i went to masjid jamek. And at 6, kila went back to her place and my friends and i went back to juc. 

Sorry for the inappropriate chronology of arrangging pictures. But somehow, it was a very meaningful mahsacians reunion ❤

Yours truly,

Dee 💋

second month of clinical placement 3

its already 2 weeks since we started our second month at our new place, PKK taman megah. PKK act stands for pusat kanak kanak or their full name is pusat penjagaan kanak kanak cacat. first day was horrible guys. i dont know why am i here, what is this place, why this such place, people exist, too many why(s) and i dont know how to react during my first day, first week. 

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honestly guys, this place have a lots of children - disabled and handicapped child and normal child which are poor or their parents was dead. what i did not expect was there's a lotssssss like really really a lotsss of disabled child. theres a lots of cerebral palsy cases, down syndrome cases, microcephaly, hydrocephalus, autism, autistic, spina bifida, blind since born, a lot guys, a lotss!

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i felt really really sad on behalf of them and so sympathy. why this child were born like this? where are their parents? and this is their life? everyday doing nothing? just counting the days to death? cause really guys, cerebral palsy cases are the most common cases in this place and all of them cant talk. cant walk. cant stand. they dont even know who we are. they dont know what is life, their mind is unconcious, its a brain paralysis gais. even they're awake, but they actually not. 

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the canteen, are the place where other cases besides CP were place. the first time i went to canteen i was like oh my god! what is this? what Allah wants to show me? really guys, its felt like you are walking in the dark street and a lots of homeless, beggar, or simply word - gelandangan at your left and right side. and im really really scared!!

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i almost cried during my first day. im so sympathy towards them. i dont know that this kind of people exists in this world. but its a good place actually. at least they have something you call home to stay. at least they have something to eat. at least!

one thing i dislike about this place, we as a physio only give a treatment to the CP cases and guess what? we only give passive movement to them - just move all the joints. and we are doing that from 9-5. imagine gais, its so boring and i dont know how to face it everyday for another 2 weeks. 2 weeks guys, im gonna die. its true that i said to enjoy every moment but this time i dont how to enjoy it. every time im doing passive movement i asked myself how to enjoy this thing? im sleepy gais soo sleepy!! even ema, one of the child who have mild CP (shes concious btw as its only mild CP) call me sleeping beauty cause i always sleepy and sleeping hhaha. 

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we also will be doing suction and nebulizer to those in need. im so happy if the therapist asks me to do neb or suction cause little that they know at least i have life. at least i can do something other that passive movement. at least guys, at least!!

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but so far for 2 weeks i'd been posted here, im okay. i mean its only first week that im felt so scared towards this kiddos. but now alhamdulillah i can accept the fact that not all people in this world are lucky. and i realized they're not disabled. the only disability in life is a bad attitude. they're special. 

and that girl with us is soma, degree student - also from mahsa. that day was her last day posted there. she was lucky to be posted there only for 2 weeks. unlike us, a month!! and another 2 weeks to go omaigoddddd

yours truly,

dee