5 to 4

Guys.... I just updated to you guys about all of the five patients here. But suddenly now we have four. No more five patients. Its only four.. four...

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So i was at johor as i apply for a leave. I was sleeping in the early morning and i heard my whatsapp notification came in nonstop. So i woke up and check my phone. My LYC Staff group said that aunty P spo2 had drop. From 99% - 78%. Everyone in the group were so panic. The doctor asked them to give normal saline, increase the oxygen, prop up the bed, percussion everything that they could do.. and im being the far one just kept silent and continue my day. 

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I was driving at 9 that time when suddenly another messages came in. I look at the notifications bar and it showed a message from su. She sent a photo with a message, "aunty dah takde" 

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I was shaking that time. i felt the whole world upside down so i stopped the car and open the message to see the photo..

Su sent us this photo and damn guys it was a very heartbreaking photo and i cried guys.. im so sad.. and im sure the nurses too as they were the one who taking care of aunty P all the time. Im speechless and all of the memories with aunty P came into my mind.

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Aunty P was our very first patient from australia. Even though she was bedridden and have not a lot of movement with humming speech but she taught us everything. Everything that we need. The documentation, the dressing set like what else that we need. And she make us thinks what other thing that is incomplete. And we can do a list for a better admission, the procedure to admit. 

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I was so sad and tell my whole family about aunty P. I just miss her.. seeing her smile and answered to me when i called her. And i used to call her baby cause that one time i asked her are you a baby? And she said yes... :')

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Aunty P was in fever few days back. And miss nadia also said its normal according to her age and she can go anytime. Its only us that matter to get ready. And i never thought that aunty P will leave all of us on her christmas day and i was not there too.. wish i could be with her on her last breathe. 

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And now, im coming back to this centre and i went to her room.. its just so heartbreakingg seeing her empty bed, empty locker and seeing  all of her clothes... Goshh, i almost burst into tears. Just imagine, she was our first patient and we spent the whole day taking care of her before the second patient and third and forth and fifth patient came in. Its almost 3weeks we taking care of her with full attention and now shes gone... 

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So now, from 5 patients, we only have 4 now... Its act 3 because another uncle just admit to hospital just now because of anemia. But he will come back here for sure. 

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Goodbye and merry christmas aunty P. Rest in peace baby, you're not suffer anymore... :)

Yours truly,

Dee

All of the five patients

Toughest week, hardest week, hectic week.. thats all that i can say.. im so tired like i need rest. We need rest. The nurses must be the ones who are so tired the most. And guess what.. we're having 5 patients right now.. suddenly five patients.. 5 patients without any helper // maid // cleaner, without a single man to help us are the most challenging things. We running here and there.. everydayyy... Everytime...
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We're the ones who doing patients laundry, to collect the dirty clothes, to put it into the washing machine, to dry it at the sun, to run when its raining out of the blue. To fold it when its already dry and to keep it in their drawer back again.. #notcomplaining
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We're the ones who do the house chores, cleaning this and that. To sweep and mop it. To clean the dirty dishes. To clean the table after the patients finished eating, to prepare their meals, to serve the meals.. to cut the fruits when it is tea break. #notcomplaining Sorry not sorry sometimes we forgot that they have tea break. We didnt cut the fruits until the patients himself/herself asking for food..
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And to give medication before and after eat. To take the bp 2hourly, to do dressing, to transfer the patients, to sponging and showered them, to do physio things, to answered the call, to layan the banyak songeh behavior... I almost tinggi suara to that uncle who is sooo banyak songeh and i felt bad bout it omg.. #notcomplaining
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The nurses and miss nadia herself really giving up and really want to resign omaigoddd.. i hope we have lots of staffs coming soon and yes one or two maid please. Im so tired. Im not a multitasker to do this and that. And im not that talented to doing the nurses job as i didnt know how to do dressing, to serve meds, to remember what meds should be given, to update to the doctor from time to time.. a simple things like taking vital sign and glucose i can do la butttttttt to change diapers? To do dressing? To give meds? I cant.... not to include the scariesta d tension part when we being scold by the doctor..  haihhh #notcomplaining
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Plus, im incharge for all of the 5patients. Im the one who need to update to their family about whats happening, what things need to be topup, what things need to buy, what are the vital sign, what they eat, what this what that... #notcomplaining
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And i also incharged to answer the call, to record the phone enquiry, to set an appointment, to show around when visitor or future patient come to look around.. im doing OT almost 10 hour guys. And the nurses almost 24 hours.. phewwww
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But, always look on the brighter side, yes please.. my english languange improve guys. Remembering that i once had told you that i know how to write in english but to speak in english, im a bit scared and not confident enough. Now, since i already answered hundreds call from all kind of people in this entire world including the mat salleh one and doing physio, giving instructions in english, to communicate with their family in english... Im confident enough now *blownails
practice do really make it perfect guys. And one more, surround yourself with the circle who speak in english even if it is rojak languange and just ignore bout the grammar thingy thing. You speak the language. Not sitting in exam to correct the grammar. Me sometimes say 'him' when i should say 'her' 藍
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So please pray for me guys. Pray for us.. And if youre a nurse or MA or caregiver or cleaner, heres got vacancy to you.. please contact me please please please. I need youuuuu...
See ya...

Yours truly,
Dee 💋

#hakimxaqilah wedding day

Last saturday, i went back to cyberjaya with my parents as my cousin from ayah side, kakqila is getting married. The akad nikah was on friday but i cant attend it since i was working that time. So on saturday, we went to dewan adam hawa at bangi for the reception day. 

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As what i remembered, i never write anything bout ayah's family side since we rarely met. #baddaughter 

And guess what? It was a very longggg time since the last time i met all of them. Well, this wedding makes me happy as i can see every each one of them. Its true that me and ayah's side not so close but yea, i do miss to gather around with ayah's family.

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It was a simple and beautiful wedding guys. I always dream to have a grand wedding ((which will never happen)), but attending kak qila's wedding make me realize that even a simple wedding, you can still be happy. And its beautiful tho. With all the nice decoration and delicious food, the guest, which are not so many of them but thats the 'true one'. 

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Something that made me sad, we didnt have proper family photos with the bride and groom on the pelamin as kakqila had to go to their outdoor shooting. 

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So i only snap few photos using my phone and yaa theres not much photo as the previous wedding that i'd attended before.

That is Alleya Adini, the one who really naughty but clever. I used to disturb her everytime i see her but i didnt met here for a quite a long time as i'd mentioned just now. So when she came and salam me, she say ''heyyy lama tak jumpa" gosh, this girl even clever now and thank god, she still remember me phewww. Unlike natasha helena, she already forget me and when i ask her "kenal tak?" And she said no *criesblood*

And thats achik, no need introduction i guess.. 

And that cute girl with pink headband... You know who is she? Introducing to you, khalisa zara.. my anak sepupu, a daughter to abang boy, my cousin. I still remembered, abang boy was married to kakshira when i was at sabak bernam for my first clinical placement. So i cant attend that wedding. And during which semester break, i dont know, i went back to pg and mamayah brought me to see them. So that was the first time i met kakshira. I never met kakshira again after that. After sometime, kakshira pregnant and giving birth to a beautiful girl. And on this wedding, it was the second time i met kakshira and it was a first time ever i met khalisa zara. She's already 8 months gaisssss goshhh! And im so obsessed with her cuteness! 

The pengantin's. Kak qila is wayyyyy too beautiful guys!!!! I cant get over of her makeup and dress and shawl and all of it.. 

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And yes, the only anak's of mamayah that day hahhaha cause diniey is at segamat, attending class i guess or not, dating hhahaha and qayyum, was at kb, going back to our hometown with ayahchik and mamatok

And this girl also, miaa.. i guess it was my second time see her. My first time was when she was still a baby.. maigaddddd shes already 4!!! And so talkative like really guys she talks nonstop! And i just dont even know how she can play with me and being so close and get along with me that day eventho she didnt even know me hahahhah

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And i guess thats all for this #hakimxaqilah wedding day. Congratulations, both of you.. may your marriage will be hapily ever after and may your love will forever grow...

Yours truly,

Dee 💋

We're operating..

Hello guys! Its december already. As what everyone had said, its the last month of the year, so i hope its will be the best month too..

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Im doing great on early november and middle november. So i assumed it as 'yesvember' but suddenly theres a storm coming, when sue and i have to go ttdi, lyc clinic for training. And on the day itself, i'd only known that LYC have 3 companies now.. 

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As what i'd told you earlier, the first one is LYC Mother & Child Confinement Centre. Second, LYC Family Clinic. Both are at ttdi, plaza vads. And the third is, LYC Senior Living, which we had just operating it and here is where im working..

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So su and i went to LYC Family Clinic for training on last week of november. And it was a horrible week i guess. Not because of the working thing as we enjoyed working there. Only the moving part and handling with some people that was so annoying and all. But overall we can overcome it only then we just tired handling annoying people. And yours truly was very stressful, become angry to everyone, be a negative person, all the time. I hate that week act. 

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But after we came back at LYC Senior Living, its a really big relief for us. And on the 3rd december last monday, we received a patient. (Read: bedridden patient) 

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It was another storm coming as it is our first patient and we already get a tough and hard patient to handle. With all the wounds and bedsore. Equipment and a lot of things were not completed yet. But alhamdulillah, everything went well. I finally get the rythme of it.

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And a lot of people come and visit our place, considering if they want to put their mother // father here. Its quite tiring as we dont have much staff since we just open it so we have to do lots of thing. Taking care of patient (( even me as a physio have to do what nurses do )), doing cleaning, laundry, printing, administor, everything.. 

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Even though its only one patient, but what i'd mentioned earlier, she is bedridden + bed sore + wounds everywhere. So lots of thing have to do. Changing diapers (ofc), dresssing, positioning, turning, feeding, medication, recording, all... 

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Again, guys. So much respect to the nurses here and out there. And now, cant wait for the next patient ( but please dont bedridden once again, its tiring hahahah ) 

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So thats all about our first and foremost resident of LYC Senior Living - minus us ofc. Shes an australian btw. 

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See ya..

Disclaimer : im not complaining. Im just sharing with you guys. Thatnk you for understanding. 

Yours truly,

Dee 💋

Graduation day

So the day after the rehearsal, it ours biggest day. The day that we'd been waited for quite a long time. The day that witnessed all of our hardship. The day to celebrate our sucess.

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I arrived at mahsa at 11 and the first person i saw was eina. I miss her a lot and im happy that we met again after a long time. Then, we went to upstairs and getting ready there. As we get dressed with our robes, i met a lot of people. One's who is very close with me. One's who was in a different course. One's who was my roommate for both spc ofc and juc. One's who i followed her journey on instagram only. One's who we know each other during first month of english class. Everyone.. really guys, its funny how time flies.

I still remember i went to english class the first month i was at mahsa as i registered earlier. And in that english class, i met a lots of people in different course. And after that class ended, we never see each other nor talked to each other again cause everybody takes their own pathway with their course. Only that day, we met and im so proud that we still can talk and having a good chit chat like before. Gosh, i just miss everyone.

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Also my roomates at juc, mama nini and aien. And ila ofc. Really missing them, to sleep together, to watch movie together, to laugh together, to hug each other.. 

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And my #teamjai. Finally we're complete. Its so good to gather around like this. I had a bad experiences with #teamjai before - during our posting month at melaka. If you read my blog that time, i just give a hint. So let me clear the air. I fought with jai. On the very last day. Its a nightmare guys. I never fought like that before. I never been so brave to tinggikan suara at someone. And jai also was so scary that time. We're arguing nonstop and She scold me so bad that time and kept on scolding me eventhough i had stop arguing. 

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But overall, it was my fault at first cause i triggered her but she scold me nonstop guys. I hate her since that day. And not surprising at all, i burst into tears but not in front of her ofc. And i cried like theres no tomorrow. Horrible day ever guys. But after i went back to mahsa, i say sorry to jai and you know what? She said no to me like whatttt!!! Seriously???!!!! I still remembered, she was like this "takyah ah weyh, lain kali je" goshhhhh heartbreaksssss. Really guys, i hate her so much. As i hate her, i still want to fix this relationship and i cried when she dont want to apologize me. But hey, look now! Those horrible day are the things that we laugh on today. The quotes looking back and realize it was a biggest thing really hit us so much! Missing my girls so much! 

And not to be forgetten, miss azian and miss sundari. When we were at nasam malacca color walk that day, we invited them to our graduation day, and the day before, miss azian said sorry as shes not coming due to her car was breakdown. But after our convocation, she called me saying that they already in front of the hall. Omg, how can i not love them so much. They came all the way from malacca guys.. *cryingarivernow*

And it was a memorable day. Those 5 seconds accepting the scroll on stage. Meeting people that was a very long time no see. Having laugh and jokes together.. knowing that maybe it was the last time we may laughed like this. When is the next time guys? Tell me.. 

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And the most important thing. My parents, my family. It was not my day guys. It their days. My real spinal cord. Without them, i cant be there on stage receiving those scrolls. Without them, i might not be the person i am today. Without them, im nothing. Without their support and encouragement, this 3 years of journey would just stop halfway. 

And my other family. Achik and mamatok watched me from home. Their watched our mahsa live streaming and my mamatok burst into tears seeing me on stage. Thank god mahsa have that live streaming so that my mamatok can watch their first grandchild taking scroll on stage. And they make pulut kuning for me. Maigaddddd ya allah, forgive me if theres any other thing that im not grateful for.. 

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And its so many of them to be mention here. Im so glad that i write almost my diploma journey here knowing someday i might scroll it down once again and read it and miss it and cry for it over and over. 

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There are so many things that i need to jot down here but i just cant.. there's a lots of thing and theres a lump in my heart. I dont know how to express it but let make it short here. Thankyou everyone. Thankyou so much. Mamayah, family, friends, lecturers, all of them, those who came and never leave. Those who came and leave. Thankyou so much. This is not a goodbye. This is a new hello. Its the end. And also the beginning. I open at the close ✨

I made it guys! 3years of journey is not easy. Its always ups and downs there. Blacks and whites. Sweet and bitters. Thick and thin. Front and back. Alhamdulillah i am tough throughout this and not soften up early. 

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Alhamdulillah, Allah make me strong to face all of the obstacles and circumstances.

Yours truly is now a diploma gradute, MAHSA's alumni. Alhamdulillah.

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Diploma in Physiotherapy 🎈

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Its a wrapp!!!!!

Signing off,

Yours truly 💋