A promise

hey there! last friday, i decided to go to abang mukhreez and adik aaron's house at cheras. i just missed them a lot even though i already met them for the past 2 weeks. so after asar, i took a grabcar and went to cheras.. as i arrived, only ceya and adik were at the home. i hugged adik tightly and played with him until ayahabe and abang come back from work and school and abang was like "eh kakak rupanya.. patutlahh ada selipar" lol abang.. 

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then we were happily playing this and that, here and there.. im so happy with this boys, seriously.. and the most unforgettable part was, i promised to them ( especially abang, cause adik understand nothing ) that i will slept over at his house.. abang was so happy when i said that and he being such a nice boy that day.. he was listened to every words that i'd said. and when dinner time abang was like "papa duduklah sana, abang nak duduk sebelah kakak'', which made me felt soo touched.. and adik also came near to me and sat with me.. 

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then, we decided to go to putrajaya at ayah juan and cik ajue's house as there was a 'workshop' for #matesah's wedding doorgift. and again, in the car abang sat beside me and playing with his tab and said "kakak tengoklahh, tengoklahhh" ad i felt touched again and again. i felt very needed at that time.. 

everything was running smoothly, until we want to go back to cheras and everyone especially nurin and kaknona be like " janganlahh balikk janganlahh balik.. tidurlahh sini please please please.." they was begging me again and again which made me soo confused.. kaknona and nurin also went to ayah abe and said "boleh tak deeyana tidur HHP?'' ((hamshihomeputrajay)) 

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and im staring and ayahabe and inside my heart saying that "ayahabe please say please say no.. i'd promised to abang and i really want to sleep with abang.. just say no please please please"

and seem like ayahabe didnt heard what my heart said as he said "okayy.." 

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OMG!

why ayahabe why???

i dont know what to do.

my heart want to be with them.

but another heart want to be with abang and adik.

can i just separated my body into two so there's nobody hurt?

can i?

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and the hardest part was when i went to abang in the car and sadly said to him "abang, kakak tak jadi tidur rumah abang tau" and he was smiled nicely to me but didnt want to salam me.. only adik that grab my hand and salam me..

oh boy, why you make me felt guilty.. why you hurt me like this.. why abang why.. 

and ceya said "dia marah la tu"

my jaws dropped and my heart breaksssss into pieces..

i felt very guilty to the max.. 

im sorry abang, im really sorry that i didnt work what i said.. 

despite that, i love you so much that only Allah knows it. 

and i cried hardly as they leave :(

#dramasangat

but really, that situation was just really emotional and just so sad.. 

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as i entered back at the house everyone were looked at me and laughed to me.. lol, whats so funny dude.. they said ''lukakan hati budak kecik pun nak nangis ke?"

lol, you just tried looked at abang's face and you will know what i felt.. deeply inside his heart must said " why kakak why? "

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or am i the one who overthinking kind of girl?

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and whatever it was, i still felt happy with this bunch (kaknona, nurin, and others). jazari came and played with me just as same as abang and adik.. 

one thing that i learned, never make a promise in whatever situation lol.

3 days in kuala lipis

hey there! its already august in just a blink of my eyes..

if you following my instagram and wechat, you will see that all of my post about my roomates, i kept on hashtaging #NADSineverything. and just in case if you're wondering whats NADS stand for :

N - Nini

A - Aien

D - Dee

S - Syakila

and #NADSineverything is a symbolic thats we're all in this together no matter what happen, inshaallah :)

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so last weekend, aien invited three of us to her home at kuala lipis pahang as her sister will be married. im the one who felt so excited as this was our first time we "travel together". the most far places that we ever go were at cyberjaya during my birthday ( which is not so far act ). so this kinda things were really make me looking forward about it.

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 so we packed our things on thursday evening and on the friday afternoon, after class, ila and i straight away to pekeliling's bus station nearby lrt titiwangsa. mama nini and aien were posting at hkl. so we met at the bus station and the bus leave at 3 pm. 

the most sweet thing was we shared the same luggage.. and i cant believe that luggage have enough space for all of our things including that cute box thingy thing. it contains our makeup a.k.a our faces hhaha. 

in the bus, straight away after i took this wefie, i slept until aien and ila said dah nak sampai dah.. whatttt? why so sekejap? oh ya i forgot, its pahang that only took 4 hours not like johor that took 5 hours of journey.. 

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as we arrived, aien's mom said that we can stayed at the opposite house ( they rent house for the guests). its quite big and we choose to sleep upstairs. and guess what? the room was a little bit disaster with a lot of small dust here and there.. so we cleaned up the room together.. mopping over here and there.. sweeping from the corner of the room to another corner. of course we're so tired.. can you imagine, 4 hours of journey then you have to clean the room? tired mannn and hungryy lol.. 

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so after maghrib, we getting ready for the solemnization night. i choosed to wear #isabellebynh from naelofar hijab. its was insanely nice on my head.. i really really love it plus it easy to wear as it already have the scarf attached on it. 

we straight away met aien's sister, kak nana and congrats her.. she look so beautiful with the makeup on her face.. 

and a little bit of wefie..

after had a very late dinner ( the solemnization was delayed due to some reason ), we're all very very tired.. we straight away changed to our "sleeping attire" and sleep. 

and this is the place where we slept for 2 nights.. its kinda weird that we'd to share the same mattress. but afterall, im happy as thats were our very first time slept together, in one mattress, one blanket, and quite sempit hhaha. 

me after the solemnization.. (( closeup makeup ))

 

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the next day, the reception day.. we're all having fun that i dont know how to describe it in details.. so here goes our pictures that might tell you how happy and fun we were at that time.. 

and an ootd is a must! even without a nice wall as a background.. so this time the pelamin itself as the background.. 

and during our second night, four of us cant sleep.. so we talked and talked and talked endlessly, sometimes we laughed hardly and everyone's looked at ceiling.. its more like star gazing but this time was ceiling gazing i think hhaha.. 

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the best part that i will never forget, we do an emotional group hug and remain for a few minutes. or maybe im the only one who being too emotional lol #clingydeeyana

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i hope we stayed like this forever. 

because this moment really all we have.

#wereallinthistogether

#NADSineverything