Birthday celebration // leaving everything

2 saddest things just happened to me last week. Firstly im leaving potckb and im still sad bout it, still cant move on from it especially when all the classmates asked me how's posting and bestnyaa buat bekam. Really, i want to cry #clingydeeyana . few hours ago, i just whatsapp-ed kak dilah and asked her whats going on there. Maigadd i really miss them freaking damn much!!! 

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Second thing was, im leaving hometown // kota bharu // irfan. Im really really sad and that photo above was irfan when my first night i left him. Omg my tears falling down!!! I just cant.. I hope he will never forget me, his kakad. Yups, he called me kakad instead of kakak and i just realized it lol. I miss all of them so much and here's a little throwback, the next day after i finished my practical. 

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All of us had lunch at hotel renaissance to celebrate this november babies birthday. It were irfan (( we had celebrated it but without Cikcu - read my few previous entry guys )), qayyum and diniey. Also, achik and aaron but they were not 'here' lol hhahah. 

At night, anur came and gave diniey a balloon and file as a present i guess, im not sure. 

And thats all. 

Im really not in a stable mood cause sometime i felt okay and at certain time i felt like i really really want to cry and its pretty hard for me to move on from this two 'event' that already happened. Its all become memory today and im still stuck in that memory. Am i wrong cause still holding into something that had become a memory? Grrr, i really have to learn how to let it go. Not to forget, but to learn what past is past.. And a memories that we will mesmerized for the rest of our lives... Macam la tak jumpa lagi nanti kannn.. Huwarghhhhh.. 

Rindu potckb!!!!! 

And to irfan, please dont forget kakad okay no matter what happen. I know its hard for you when no one wants to play with you like i always do but it even hard for me to accept that im no longer there to play with you. Every single day you came to my room and woke me up, jumping on my bed, playing makeup with me, sang with me, everything you always do with me. I miss you so much irfan.. Just please, dont forget kakad.. 

*tears fall*

POTCKB mini farewell party

:: read about my posting week HERE ::

2 weeks of elective posting finally over and im kinda sad for the time being. i already miss all of them and the memories we created, the jokes, the laughs, i just cant..... eventho its just 2 weeks of attachment but this separation really left a big mark in my heart. what touches my heart the most are they decided to do a mini farewell party for both ila and i before we end our posting week and also a very meaningful goodbye for me. im really happy and touched and im feel appreciated when they celebrated us like this. 

so we decided to proceed to potluck theme which mean one of us bring one food or even more. so i brought nasi tumpang (tupe) and nona manis. kak mira brought sandwhiches. kak aimi brought mushroom soup, garlic bread and cheesecake. kak dila brought bread pudding and sausage. abang fahmi brought hokaido cupcake ( idk the real name tho ) and abang aiman brought keropok, not in the picture.. and that nasi is nasi air dingin which sponsored by our patient that know that was our last day and want to treat us. 

let me introduce you one by one.. this is abang aiman and kak mira.. they're a physiotherapist a.k.a our staff in charged ( abang aiman ) for this practical. they are so kind and a really helpful especially when handling a patient. every single day, we followed this two when treating the patients and we were like nodding our head and be like 'ohh macam tu..' every time lol. 

(( the second picture with kak mira, you can see that im crying actually at that time ))

that two girls are kak dilah ( green colour ) and kak aimi ( purple colour ). both of them are an occupational therapist. but they also know about physiotherapy.. actually i didnt know what the differences between that two job lol hhaha.. both of them are really nice, soft spoken and i enjoy having a chit chat with them, all of them actually.. and that boy in the front is abang fahmi, sport science. this guy is really funny and yeahhh.. idk how to describe all 5 of them because they just really nice to me.. really helpful and sporting and kind and what else, you name it mannn.. thats why i enjoy working with them. the're just like a real family.. with difference parents of course.. 

and this is the owner of this potckb place, cikzie. i dont know about cikzie so much cause i just met him three time only. but afterall, he is so nice and love to smile. 

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and to be honest, that was our really really first photo together. we were really happy at that time, enjoying the moment and very full as there a lotssss of food. oh ya, abang fahmi and abang aiman also sponsored that cocktails drinks. know what, the moment that i really miss were during our makan time. we having lunch together everyday like 7 of us gathered in one table and just having chill and joking and laughing and this and that.. i miss all of that damn much :( i just dont know how to describe it in details but i really love this team. they are really sporting and 'masuk air' kinda type. i think because of our age that have not too much differences, its look like we're siblings. and what make me feel even special is because they call me 'yana', not 'dee' like others. 

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and yes, i cry a lot that day. i just cant.. its not the goodbye that hurts, but the flashbacks that follows.. honestly, where is the good in goodbye? i still remember the first day i stepped into the POTC, the first time i ate with them, the laughes, the jokes, the hilarious, the songs we played on youtube everyday.. we started with a simple hello but ended with a complicated goodbye.. and its really damn hard for me to move on from it. even typing this im cry a little bit huwarghhhhhhhhh.. 

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and if you guys reading this, i just want to tell you that im really happy working with you guys. nothing to be sorry for. and please dont forget me and ila. im so thankful that i'd been a part from potckb group and all the memories that i'll cherish forever. goodbyes are not forever. goodbyes are not the end. they simply mean i'll miss you, until we meet again.. thanks for the memories!
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yours truly,
dee or yana

posting week

hye there.. as what had written on my last post, this entry is all about my posting week.. and if you'd followed my blog since forever, you will know that ila and i choose kota bharu kelantan for our elective posting placement.. 

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why do we choose this place? 

because i really miss my hometown and the last time i was at kb was during hari raya.. 

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so the name of that place is jeng jeng jeng... *drumrolls* lol

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PHYSIOTHERAPY & OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY CENTRE KOTA BHARU, or simply (POTC-KB)

its located at jalan dato lundang kota bharu and its the first physio centre at kelantan. isnt it amazing? its offer you various types of treatment with a reasonable price and im really recommended this place to you. all the staffs // therapist are really soft spoken, kind, nice, polite, they have all of this manner that no others place that have this kind of staffs i guess. the most important is, they will never scold or force you to do the exercises. if you cant do, they'll give a lot of support and encourage to make you feel better and if you feel tired, they will give you some break before proceed to another exercises. and if you want to know details about this place, you can just call // contact them at 09-7471661

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throwback to my first day of working there, ila and i felt so scared and nervous and excited all in one. we arrived around 8.30 am and yes, no one there hhahah lol. the staffs arrived basically around 8.45 am. and what we'd done on our day one? honestly we answered a lot of questions like nama, tinggal kat mana, dah kahwin ke belum (omg seriously?), u mana, this and that and the unforgettable part was during the time we had to meet the owner of this place. o.m.g!! im freakin scared like really really scared to meet the owner but alhamdulillah everything went well. 

after work be like. omg serabainyaaa and please, ignore that double chin tho

this place 'consist' (idk what the suitable word) of 5 staffs, 3 girls 2 boys or 3 womens and 2 mens i dont know which one hhaha. kak mira, kak dila, kak aimi, abang aiman and abang fahmi. i never called anyone abang before this so this time is kinda awkward and weird! but they're very nice and happy go lucky, sporting and yes, i laughed a lot with them. well, you know im the one who really love to laugh and all of them are really funny. im enjoy working and making observation with them. they teach us the things that we dont know and didnt scold us if we forget about certain topics. oh thanks god!!

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the above two photos are for my report actually but its okay laa hhahaha. and yes, that is bekam or cupping. i thought doing bekam was really hard but its actually very easy.. im enjoy doing that and if any one of you want to do bekam, you can call me hhaha lol #jk

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i dont know if this sound a bit weird and crazy but its only took 2 days for me to already love this place and all of them. oh my god, im really want to cry right now. i just dont want this to end. i just want to work // making observation here, forever.. the last day gonna be a very tough day i guess. one week was over, another week coming soon and im freakin sad right now. seriously, im very hard in handling 'move on' kinda things and im sorry... letting go is never easy for me..

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6 days to our very last day and im crying right now.... 

staying hometown with irfan

hey guys!! as what i told you at my last post, this november is our posting week. so exactly a week ago, on thursday night, ila and i took a bus from tbs to kota bharu. its such a new experience for us since this gotta be our first journey together and also our first time taking a bus to kota bharu. 

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on friday morning, we arrived and ila went to her aunt's house and im staying at my beloved hometown at jalan hospital *in case you want to know :P*

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im glad that irfan still recognize me even though we have not seen each other for a quite long time. i always love it everytime he calls me "kakak, kakak" and yes, every morning since my day one, as he wake up, he will go to my room, knocking the door and said "kakak, kakak...". otherwise if im not locking the door, he will enter my room, climbing the bed and jumping on my bed to wake me up.. seriously mannnn? 

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and once i already finish taking a shower, he will came at my dressing table and watching me wearing this and that.. he also love to play with my cream, makeup, moisturizer, blusher, etc.. let me show you a prove :

irfan had been quite clingy when the first day im going to work // posting ( details on the next post ) . cikcu said he was looking for me and called kakakkkk, kakkakkkk untill he fell asleep and once im back....

i never thought that he will came and sat with me at the back (inthecar) cause he always sat in the front with mamatok.. 

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three days ago, on 07 november (we called it seven eleven lol)  was irfan's birthday #irfanturnstwo . we had a small dinner at hotel renaissance kota bharu. its quite sad since cikcu was not there ( outstation duhhh ). so its only me, mamatok, ayahcu and irfan.

staying with me, of course i will teach him a few manner things.. and the first thing that i tought him was to say 'pleasee' everytime you want something. so at first when he want his toys from me i asked him

"cakap apa?"

*krikkrikkkrikk*

"cakap pleaseeeeee" i asked.

and he said "plishhhhhhhhh" so soft, so cute that make my heart melts.

and i always asking "cakap apa?" when he wants something from us and automatically he will say "plishhh" yeayyyy #missionsucessful

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but one problem, after he received something, and i asked him again "cakap apa?" and i hope he will say "thank you" but the real is he said "plishhhh" lol, seriouslyy irfann? 

#missionwasnotfullysucessfull

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next, when i was washing the dishes, he said "tu,tuuu" and showing a lizard at the walls and i said thats cicak irfan.. he staring at me, didnt understand and just go.. whatttttt? 

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the next day, he showing me again and said tuuu,tuuuu.. and i said again cicakkk.. he didnt response tho haihhh. 

so i sang "cicak cicak di dinding"

and suddenly he followed me "di-din-ding"

and i continued "diam diam merayap"

"ayappppp" (whatttt???)

"datang seekor nyamuk"

"mukkk" *jawsdropped*

"lalu ditangkap"

and he didnt response (huhhhhh) 

but he quite interested with cicak and di dinding words lol. everyday we practice and yes, he already know and mesmerised it. when mamatok said cuba nyanyi satu lagu and irfan be like 

''cicak cicak di dinding''

#missionsucessful

but only that part la hahhaa..

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so, thats all.. see you on my next post about how i roll my-very-first-time being a therapist ohh mannnn... #prayfordeeyana